More Than Enough

A few weeks ago, I was driving to a friend’s house with my partner and as usual, my gas light came on in my car. When I say “as usual” I absolutely mean that. The gas light comes on in my car more often than I would like to admit. In fact, it happens so often that my partner jokes with me about it…maybe only to save themselves from a panic attack. See, there are two types of people in this world, those that fill up their gas tank whenever they can, even if they only need a quarter or half tank to fill it up. Then there are those that like to push the car to its limits…like me. Where the light comes on and I say, “Ohh I have enough to get me home. I’ll get some tomorrow.” Then I always forget to allow extra time the next day and then push the car even closer to zero as I rush to another appointment.

While I have been warned by many, especially car lovers, that I am playing a dangerous game, I continue to push my luck and wait until the very last moment to pull into the gas station. I have never really understood why I do this and on this day driving to our friends’ house it suddenly hit me.

I have been living my entire life as just enough. 

Let me fill you in on a bit of my life. Yes I promise, it’s the short version. For most of my life, I have tried to be something or more specifically, someone else in order to fit in. I tried to fit in everywhere so much that I created a problem. I ended up being a person that had no idea who I was. I was stuck. Stuck in not ever feeling that who I was deep down, was actually enough.

Then I discovered the phrase, “you are enough.” Over time with a lot of self work and discovery, I began to believe that I am enough and have seen significant changes in my life, especially in my confidence.

So why, with my life having become so much better by believing that “I am enough” do I now see my life as “just enough?” It came as a surprise for me too. What is wrong with “enough?”

According to the Merriam Webster dictionary, enough means: “occuring in such quantity, quality, or scope as to fully meet demands, needs, or expectations.” Sounds great right?! Having enough to make sure you have your needs and or expectations met. Who wouldn’t want that?

Yet, as I am driving down the highway, I find myself angry that I’m back here as usual. With my gas light lit up once again. Checking to see if I have enough miles to make it to my destination, realizing that I do, and not stopping before I get to my destination to refill. 

Did you hear it? Because at that moment I did.

“Enough” miles. Enough. Why was I living my life by having just enough to get me to where I wanted to go? Why wasn’t I living with the mindset of having “more than enough?” This isn’t just about how often I fill up my gas tank. This is about all aspects of life.

I have enough gas, friends, enough money, enough clients, enough work, enough experiences, enough love…..

What if I lived a life where I had more than enough? More than enough of many of these pieces of life would not only change my life drastically, but others lives as well. With more than enough money, I can donate to causes I care about or simply help out a friend. With more than enough experiences, I can share what I have learned to help others and have a fulfilling life. With more than enough work, I can hire help and pay someone well to do what they may enjoy. With more than enough friends, I can share more laughter, love, and joy.

What if I choose to live my life as enough and see life through the lens as more than enough? I suddenly realized that by living life as just enough, I was surviving life. What I want is to thrive in my life. Thriving, truly, is having more than enough so you don’t have to worry. Thriving, according to Merriam Webster again, is “to grow vigorously”. Focusing on living life through this lens can make a huge difference in how you show up for what is important to you. Thriving can mean growth, not only for yourself, but for others in your life, community, and around the world.

Where do you see yourself as allowing just enough in your life? How can you look through the lens of more than enough, through gratitude, or through change to start thriving in your life? 

I’m going to start by always having more than enough gas in my car to get me to where I need to go and by having gratitude with what I have that is already more than enough. It’s a jumping off point. I know by looking through the lens of “how can I have more than enough?” I will find other areas of my life to fill up as well.

About the Author

Name: Brynna Wilson

Professional Title: Financial Advisor and Money Coach

Bio: Brynna is the founder of Citrine & Gold LLC and focuses on helping female business owners and the LGBT+ community understand the logical, psychological, and emotional sides of money. Brynna is passionate about creating a world where minority groups have more power in political, social, and local decisions by using wealth as an access point. 

Website: www.citrineandgold.com 

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